my first animation flick

My first try in animation (HELL OF A FIGHT). I have used flash to achieve my first attempt (so don't expect 3D stuff). I would like you guys to see the film with a pair of headsets (must), so that the music can be heard better. I don't have the technical skill to score the background music for a film and so had to use the sounds from the internet and that would require a headset for better clarity . please watch it and pass on ur comments. thank you.

மாறிய பின் “நான்”!!!

அனைத்தும் நடந்து முடிதனவோ?

நேற்று பார்த்ததுபோல் தோன்றியது.

இன்று பூமியே புதிதாய் பூக்க,

நான் கண்ட அவள், காரணமோ?



மிண்ணும் கண்கள் இதயத்தை திருட,

விலை இல்லாத புன்னகை உயிரை பருக,

அவள் கருங்குழல் அசைவு

என்னை மொத்தம் இழுக்க,

தண்டனைக்கு தாவி ஓடிய மனசு

அவளை சுற்றி சிறைப்பட்டது.

சிரிப்பை கண்டது

என்னை மறந்தது

அவளாய் மாறியது.

                                                             - மாறிய பின்,

                                                            வ.வள்ளியப்பன்
                                                                    july/3/2010

நான் தேடும் கற்பனை பெண்ணே !!!

வயதோ இருபத்தி நான்கு

புத்தியோ பேதை பின் இருக்கு

யாருமில்லா கற்பனை பெண்ணே

என் விழி எந்நேரமும் உன்னை சந்திக்கிறது



யாரடி நீ?

ஏன் என்னை சுற்றி இருக்கிறாய்?

இமை விலகாத அளவுக்கு

ஏன் அழகாய் எனக்கு தோன்றுகிறாய்



மனதில் இருக்கும் நீ

என் கண் முன் வரும்போது ஏன் மறைகிறாய்?

காதல் கற்பனையை வளர்க்கும்

நானோ கற்பனையை காதலிக்கிறேன்



யாரை கேட்டது என் இதயம்?

உண்ணில் கலந்தது

மீட்டு தருவாயா?

நான் தேடும் கற்பனை பெண்ணே !!!

                                                                        கற்பனையில்,

                                                                      வ.வள்ளியப்பன்

                                                                         27/JUNE/2010

ZEN in ME

Having written succinctly about ZEN in my earlier post, I wasn’t sure of my next one and didn’t find any topic interesting enough to write my view point. In 2010, ZEN is the best thing, I have come across and it flows in me every day. Now, I am not who I was, a couple of months before, as I find a terrific change in me mentally with the intervention of koans.

“Life travels the way, we see it and there are no pre written routes”. This statement holds good when met with success but when faced with failure, comes the word ‘FATE’, a pre written story. We humans have the nature to accept appreciations and vomit the criticism, we just can’t handle it. I ain’t a different species and I found myself in the midst of man’s self destruction mechanism, self pity. Having changed a career track from research based studies to creative based studies had me completely go nuts. Creativity wasn’t a problem for me; seeing the creative idea visually was the daunting task.

I would call up someone and talk hours and hours together, to tell that I am not compatible, totally stuporous and the same routine continued before I got injected with koans. It articulated one thing to me and that was, ‘I was blind’. Why? I was looking at my problems through my eye and refused to take them behind the bars of my eye balls into my brains. Problems were seen by me as I would see the animals in the zoo, not to care, but to look and have a statement said about them. I found Zen taking a devil version of myself as I didn’t want to accept the change but for the first time I support ‘FATE’, in the context of success, as a path was provided to lead myself to the right track.

What I missed all these days? Confidence; I had been lost within me. Losing confidence is losing yourself; similar to a human body without white blood cells (WBC’s). You lose immunity to survive. Tigers and Cats belong to the same family but why do we fear the Tiger? Cause its ferocious, Strong, etc etc. But do we ever know what the tiger thinks about us? No. We don’t. We are conditioned to get scared. The same goes to our problems, the one who dares to face the devil in the eye survives or provides a path for others to survive. I was bogged down with my problems, never wanting to face them but if life has move on then I got to face them one day. A problem should be seen as a door blocking the entrance to a room of happiness. Once you dare to face it, you win it halfway and your confidence to solve it, will find you the solution key, leading you to the room of happiness.

A spark is all we need and I am happy I could find my first solution key with the help of Zen koans. My eyes got mutated with the notion of self and knowledge in it. Problems of any kind are better solved when it involves only you. I call upon all of you, to live for yourselves because when you think deeper, you will know that you are living a life that never forms YOU. I strive towards living at my own terms but reality (society) has to be faced.

ありがとう (THANKS)

ZEN - first look

I was not aware of the complete meaning of a line “toughest things in life are always presented in simpler forms”, until I met myself with the ZEN koans. Understanding the simplest things in life are made the most complicated subjects. Take an example, truth is a virtue to be followed and following it, leads you to progress in the most respectful way but are we truthful to everybody we meet? No. Why? We have thousands of reasons to support our mistakes but what was the expected at that moment? Not to lie. It is simple to read it as a line but to follow it is a challenge. Few years back, I used to read these koans as witty stories in my native language weeklies but now after coming to engage myself in trying to understand the in depth meaning of the koans, has left me completely awestruck.

Talking about Zen, it is a variety of Buddhism. A thousand years after Lord Buddha, a monk from India had come to China in 520 A.D (believed to be so) with a modified form of Buddhism. It became widely practiced in China and then stepped on to Japan, under the name Zen. Zen now flourishes majorly in Japan. The traveler who brought Zen into China was Bodhidharma (Bhodi = Enlightened; Dharma = Truthful way). Following Bodhidharma, Zen was transmitted through a body of monks and a series of patriarchs – each patriarch leaving his robe and begging bowl to his chosen successor as a badge of office. Zen neglects karma, reincarnation and nirvana, but demands meditation, concentration and physical discipline.

Just a few lines of some writing and we end up in a different world, if we understand its complete meaning. Koans in my opinion are not puzzles or questions or stories or riddles, they are statements of life. Well the answers to koans are unlimited in number or just one. How you see life? What you talk? What you think? What you experience? What you want? What you can do? in addition with so many other questions like these together define the answer to the koans, leaving every single reader with different meanings or meaning towards his/her life. It gives answers to simple ways of happy living which we complicate to make it harder to live.

Basically koans have an unimaginable ending, leading to one and only conclusion of ‘no conclusion to the just read koan’; this leaves the reader in a complete frustration but I find the need to develop the skill of thinking, patience and insight view on life are the hidden teachings along with its focused meaning, from the so found koans. When not given an answer to a problem, we have a choice to find the solution or to avoid it, but from my little understanding of koans I feel benefits are there by taking it into you or by leaving it aside. Well to explain in a clearer way, when you come across something and you purposefully overlook it, it doesn’t actually hurt you by any means but would have affected you in some means which you are about to find out, sometime, in the near future or later. A koan avoided just tells you that a little more maturity and experience is required to understand its message or it was a koan never designed for you.

Koans are not monks alone cup of tea, as understanding them can be fully revealed not by being a loner but staying and living among people. Zen teachings focus on attaining enlightenment, which is obtained when we use them to overlook logic. Not every koan is useful; it is made useful according to our needs. It is our perception as they never impose a way to see them, leaving it to be subjective as you never know what a koan has for you.